I was supposed to post this at the end of September but I totally forgot. I was randomly opening my file folders in my laptop out of boredom, and I found this photo. Please click to enlarge.

Those are captures of the quarterly self checkup pages in my journal/diary. And if you might’ve noticed, I was doing okay with my Chart A (the positive chart) during the three quarters that passed. But with my Chart B (the negative chart), there’s a significant change during the third quarter. It got worse. And that’s an honest assessment I made myself.

July, August, September — those three months have been the toughest ones for me, not only this year, but so far. I’ve undergone a lot of difficulties. I’ve been mentally and emotionally challenged, and I didn’t even think I was ready for all those hardships. Fortunately, I was able to manage. And I don’t only have my own effort to thank for, but of course, my friends who have been there for me during the worst times of my life. Days came when tears welled up in my eyes and flowed down my cheeks. But I don’t regret shedding them. Those were proofs that I’m human, that I have a brain that thinks and a heart that feels. And they gave me a wider view of life.

Once again, I want to thank my friends, D’ Hacienderas and the Cebu Bloggers Society, for supporting me. You might not have realized yet what you’ve done for me, but I’m pretty sure you’ve allowed me to grasp something worthy out of this unpredictable life. I’ve got my lessons learned. I just hope I’ll continue learning, so keep the challenges coming.

The first month of the final quarter has passed, and I still have two months to prove that this year is not my worst. Help me spend the remaining two months in searching for more reasons to consider this year one of my bests. I will find them. We will find them.